Letters from the J Underground is HERE!

Hey, everyone,

I can hardly believe it! I am so excited that my seventh book — one for every chakra — is OUT and available as both a paperback as well as an ebook. You can find the paperback is available NOW and the ebook will be available on Friday, Sept. 14th. What an honor it is to make this available to anyone who may be on a similar path. To me, A Course in Miracles is the Holy Grail of books and it is my cup of tea and my chosen path for now and always. If you would like to read about my shared experiences then you can find the books on these links — the book is cheap, short, and delivers the “goods”:

Paperback — available now!

Letters from the J Underground – click here!

eBook is available NOw for pre-order and will be sent on Friday, Sept. 14th:

Letters from the J Underground – eBook

Much gratitude to my wife, Heather, who was able to put all of this together. She is amazing and my mightiest companion. I talk about her more in the book . . .  we have known each other, in this lifetime, for over twenty years and our story of meeting is pretty cool. You’ll see;)

In the meantime, if you have not had a chance to listen to my latest interview with ACIM expert, Jackie Lora Jones, then you can listen here. Boy is she fun to be with as she knows the Course like the back of her hand:


Another interview about the book came earlier this summer with May-Lily Lee on her show, American Spark. If you feel inspired to listen to that, then the link is here. We had a bunch of fun and here show is lovely.


At this point in time, I am officially opening up my personal spiritual prayer and meditation practice. You can find out more about this on the “Counseling Sessions via ACIM” link on this website. Easy peasy!

I can’t wait to hear from you all. Until then, blessings on your journey and may peace and joy and kindness be your gifts to yourself and everyone you meet.

Many blessings and eternal love to you,






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Interview with ACIM expert – Jackie Lora Jones!

Hey, everyone,

Just last week, I had my very first live interview with one of the premier international experts on A Course in Miracles — Jackie Lora Jones. Wow! If anyone wants a clear uncompromising understanding of the Course, then Jackie is IT! She is not only a fabulous interviewer, she is also an amazing Teacher of God. I am just going to call her what she absolutely represents! I was so honored and grateful — and a little nervous — to be on her show. We talk about the Course, our collective journey down the “seeming” rabbit hole into time and space, and how we are all going home to the place we NEVER left. Awesome sauce! In between, we chat about my next book, Letters from the J Underground, which will be out in September! The hardest book — and the shortest — I have ever written, like a non-fiction “chap” book. It will be short, cheap and good . . .  I promise.

Here is the link to the interview if you feel inspired to listen:


Thanks to all my friends from the RVA Course Community who have and continue support me on this journey. The utter support from my mighty companions here in Richmond has been amazing! Thank you to all who have prayed for me and given me the confidence in getting my story and message to the people who may be helped by it. Perhaps ten or twenty or more (who knows — only the Holy Spirit!) .  .  . truly to the ones who have struggled with mental illness, suicide, or depression or any psychic debris they have carried from other dream lifetimes. Yep, all a big dream and we are living it together!

Additionally, I HIGHLY recommend all of you to take one of Jackie’s webinars. You can find all of the information here on her website https://jackie.news/ if that hyperlink does not work, then just google her name: Jackie Lora Jones — easy peasy!

I hope in the future, I can be half the teacher Jackie is . .  . she is a great role model, like her sister Cindy and her brother-in-law, Gary! (Their collective work is a game changer!) Everyone can be healed and helped by her. She gets a lot of emails but, believe me, she answers them. And, when you listen to our interview, you will clearly hear how great she is!

Okay, back to eating pizza and ice cream and living the dream . . . Heather and I just got back from a fabulous trip to Colorado and are couch potatoe-ing it before we go back to work tomorrow.

I love you all and wish the very best to anyone who may be reading this now. Just know, the journey back gets better and better each day as we meet people where they are and love them where they are.

Peace to you . . .  and peace on earth!


(forgive any typos you may read or see here…)









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American Spark Interview for Letters from the J Underground

Version 2My very first interview for the hardest book I’ve ever written is here! What a joy May-Lily Lee is! She is a fantastic interviewer. I was so grateful to sit down with her recently at a studio here in Richmond to discuss Letters from the J Underground. The release date is set for early September. Check out the podcast on American Spark!


A big shout out goes to my mighty companion, Kim Severin, who began this project. It turns out she had a whole separate book in her, Making the Turn, which will be out later this year. Kim was my guiding light from the very start and she encouraged me to do this book. My dear friend, Nathaniel Mason, who is a brilliant and talented man (now in the doctoral program at William and Mary) gave me the prayerful support and guidance, too. He will write many books in his life that will assist many people. I am positive of that!

Most importantly, gratitude for my wife, Heather Campbell, who has become my “eyes”. As I’ve struggled with physical vision loss, Heather has put on every hat possible when it comes to assisting me in getting this book out there. Heather has believed in me even when I didn’t believe in myself. She is an amazing woman, an amazing editor, and an amazing artist. Her support and dedication to me has brought me the most confidence and peace in the true messages I reveal in this book to the world.

All my love,


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Letters from the J Underground

ebook cover image_ruthI’m excited to announce that my seventh book is here.  It is called Letters from the J Underground and was written with the help of my friends, Kim Severin and Nathaniel Mason. For those of you that want a sneek peek, here is an updated excerpt:

“Dear Friends, 

There’s a scene in the movie, The Sound of Music, where Julie Andrews begins singing to Christopher Plummer as they kiss in one of the most romantic scenes of all time. As they cradle each other in the gazebo, she sings to him, “somewhere in my youth or childhood, I must have done something good.” She is reflecting in the lyric—in that moment of good, in that moment of truth in her childhood, she did something so great . . . so, good and perfect . . . now her payoff is this amazing love she is feeling for her holy love—him.

When I watch that scene, as I have many times, I fall in love with them both. For me, it’s a clear still point of truth and the loveliness of falling in love. It always takes my breath away. The chemistry is palpable, as palpable as the heartbeat of every love story—ever.

Yes, Julie Andrews—or Frauline Maria. You did something very good. She croons to him and I’m transported to Heaven inside my own heart. It feels like Heaven when I watch that lovely scene and that entire joyful movie. There is singing and playfulness and romance and it has that ending scene of them climbing over that mountain into Switzerland—the mountain to freedom.

We are indeed all just like those characters on our own stage of life. We’re dreaming of love and joy and utter blessings. The family Von Trapp brings it to us and the entire movie breaks open our hearts.

Even though I was brought up Catholic, I never understood Jesus or even thought he was a part of my life until I came to the Course. I never understood God or the bible as I couldn’t wrap my brain around any of it. I walked away from it all. I didn’t think I could ever have a personal relationship with Jesus or God. But, when I started meditating in earnest and praying in earnest and feeling like somewhere in my youth I had done something good—just like Julie Andrews—I began to feel more and more connected with J.

Then on the stage of my own life, I had a dream of him—J. And, now, I’ve come to know I’m part of something I never, ever believed I’d say out loud or even proud. I love him. I love Jesus. I love the Holy Spirit. I love God.

God is. . . there, now I am getting it right.

Now, I am certain I need to laminate my membership card to the J Underground. I think on the front, it will have a picture of our beloved enlightened brother: Jesus or “J” for short. Perhaps something cartoony that depicts an elevator: doors open, one illuminated “up” button, and a line wrapped around the corner of a city block. Just inside, Jesus is there, extending a hand to the next person in line with a tag line like, “Teach only love, for that is what you are.” Which may be too Jesusy for some. Or, it could say, “Forgive and forget,” which may be too simple. Or, it could say, “God is . . .” which may be too existential.

In truth, I don’t think Jesus cares as long as the message gets through—with crystal clear-cut clarity. The clarity came in my sleep. It was utter truth and I claim it as personal testimony to all.

Check out the book, where the story of my dream (which continues this letter) is revealed. I hope this piques your interest.

All my love,


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Going blind . . .

What it means to be going blind…

It seems like a terrible trick when one’s eyesight begins to diminish and fail. And in truth, it is. I can’t think of any of the five senses that one could choose to lose. It seems to me that going blind is the worst. But I choose to be brave over choosing to be fearful about losing my eyesight. This doesn’t mean I’m some huge hero. It just means that I choose to think differently. There have been times in the last seven years when I was quite fearful of going blind. Now, as I make steps to go to the department for the Blind and Visually Impaired in Richmond, Virginia in October, to get help, all I can think about are the students I taught and the readers who have read my books. I think of the fact that I was gifted for so many years to spread the love of teaching and to see words and just speak them and translate them to people who needed me.

So, I use this blog to help others in case they might want to listen. Words have always been a special love for me. I love to read them, I love to hear them, and I love to write them. Words have given me a sense of truth, words have given me a sense of meaning, and words have given me a sense of deliverance from this world.

I can no longer read books. I can no longer read anything that is written in the grocery store. I can barely read road signs unless they are in humongous font, like a stop sign. My church where I work has purchased adaptive software so I can read emails and do work on the computer. But last week I had to give up driving. I can no longer struggle with the shadows that are cast in front of me and drive through them without thinking I might hit someone. And while I don’t care what happens to me most times, I certainly care about others who may cross my path. So GRTC has become my friend. Just these last few weeks I have begun to ride the bus to work. I am grateful for the kindness of strangers as I was quite lost those first few trips to the transfer station downtown. I was blessed by a man who works in the Federal Building. I believe his name is Ralph. The first day I got off the bus, he put out his arm and I grabbed hold of it and he gently and kindly walked me across the street to the transfer station. He did it twice. He showed me what bus to get on. I got to work on time.

Our brothers and sisters in this world are so kind and when I got lost last week trying to come home, a lady at the transfer station was able to direct me to the right street to pick up the bus. It took me two and a half hours to get home,  but that was okay because the whole time I was just grateful. Grateful to the people who surrounded me.

I have given up many things that require the use of my eyes. I don’t watch television hardly at all and even when I do I have to sit nearly on top of the TV.  Recently I was using binoculars from the other side of the room to see images. I can only watch shows that don’t cut scenes too quickly and where the lighting is good so I can see faces. I can no longer see people and their heads from ten feet away. Even if they sit across from me I cannot see clear sharp images of eyes, noses, and lips. When I go for walks I can see trees and cam hear birds and see the street and still see forms but it’s all very vague now.

As I write this, I use a speech-to-text application and I must hold it close to my eyes to see what it is that I am writing. It takes me 20 times longer to write using this application than a keyboard. When I log into my email I have to put my left eye down to the keyboard to see the keys clearly.  I have to ask people who they are when they walk toward me.

But, I am not fooled by what is happening because I have been lucky enough to stumble upon  the greatest book of our lifetimes.

Some of you know, that I facilitate  a spiritual group every Saturday morning at St Thomas’s Church. I am grateful to be facilitating a group that uses the teaching of A Course in Miracles whose author is Jesus and whose scribe is the late Helen Schucman. We are big enough adults now to recognize that channeled works exist. We are adult enough now to recognize that there is something more happening in this world than just going from meal to meal, Facebook post to Facebook post, and going from day-to-day in our daily habits and rituals.

If there is one lesson I can teach people from this process that seems to become a new normal each day, it is this: there is a greater purpose in this life than the things that keep us busy in our minds each day. There is a greater purpose in this life than the things that keep us distracted in our minds everyday. There is a greater purpose in the effects of this world.

Our purpose in this world is to forgive it. Our purpose in this world is to see our brothers and sisters as innocent. Our purpose in this world is understand that these bodies we inhabit are not the truth. Our spirit is the only truth there is. And in the Big Blue Book that I study and teach from each Saturday, Jesus is asking us to do two things. He is asking us to teach only love for that is what we are. And he is asking us to forgive our brothers and sisters for what they never did.

Our mind is split. We either choose the thought system of fear – the egp. Or we choose the thought system of love – the Holy Spirit. In the Big Blue Book, Jesus is asking us to take our role in the atonement. What this means is he’s asking for us to . . . in our minds . . . forgive this world, these bodies, and every arrogant unloving  thought of fear, anxirty, and attack. When we forgive ourselves and each other, we are helping him repair the split mind – the trick of the ego. And let me put this bluntly. The ego made the worold of levels, pain and pleasure, and the body. The body was made as a device to hide from God. The body will never prevail. We exist as spirit . . . as minds. Any sickness in the body is a defense against the truth. My eyes are part of the ego-self. I will say this bluntly, too. I signed up for this lifetime long before I came into this body. Every trick of the ego was my choosing and I have to look at that and repair it in my mind – not in my body.  And, I forgive myself for errors that I – in Truth – never made. The only way I can truly forgive and help Jesus and the atonement is to accept my role in it. And my role is to forgive myself and others in my mind and one day the ego will wither and die and we can all go home together. We all go home together because we all landed here together. It’s a done deal.

So while my eyes seem to  go down the tubes, I realize that my brothers and sisters both known and unknown will show up to assist me. They look like guys who sit on buses and travel to their jobs and who see a person across the aisle who needs help. They are guys like Ralph who don’t know my name but see that the gift of love and help blesses us all. God bless him. God bless all of my students I ever taught. God bless all the readers who have read my books. Jesus chooses his channels wisely…just like you who is now reading this.

If you see me in town, please come up and say hi. I might not be able to see you clearly but I will be so glad to have the opportunity to be with you.

Love wins.




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Silent in the Grace . . .

I need to laminate my membership card to the J Underground. I think on the front, it will have a picture of our beloved enlightened brother: Jesus. Perhaps something cartoony that depicts an elevator: doors open, one illuminated “up” button, and a line wrapped around the corner of a city block. Just inside, Jesus is there, extending a hand to the next person in line with a tag line like, “Teach only love, for that is what you are.” Which may be too Jesusy for some. Or, it could say, “Forgive and forget,” which may be too simple. Or, it could say, “God is . . .” which may be too existential.

In truth, I don’t think Jesus cares as long as the message gets through – with crystal clarity.

Last month on June 18th, I had a lucid dream I will never forget. Since that dream, I have shared it with some of my close friends, my mother (to whom I tell just about everything), and a few co-workers at St. Thomas’ Church where I work. Church always feels safe to share and explore.

I will cut straight to the scene in the dream. I feel safe to share with my friends (the few of you here). You will get it;)

I was in a darkened room that was filled with the kindest people I have ever known. There were many of us and I could not make out discrete faces. It was a reflection – for lack of better words – of my daily life since many of you know I have lost a lot of my physical sight in the last seven years.

The dream went on for quite a while. I remember I was dressed in black slacks, a striped shirt from Chico’s, and I felt the presence of saints. It was that kind of kindness – saintly. Later, I would think I was glad not to be in my bathing suit or a pair of baggy shorts and a T-shirt.  As I listened in the dream to the lecturer I was there to see, it became apparent that I, too, was there to say a few words. I am not one for the limelight but was okay when the focus shifted toward me.

As the sweetness of the feeling I had continued, a lovely man of whom I could not see clearly got up from a chair and came to my side and said, “I am going to put my hands on your shoulders.” I was up for a back rub;) But, as I felt the loving pressure, I got the most relaxed I have ever felt – I then began to apologize as I felt I was drooling on this guy.

And, then, by the grace of God, it happened.

Like a mike drop, the scene switched instantly as I shot up out of my body. I was wholly in another world and completely aware. I looked at the crystal clear daylight and my first question was, “Where am I?” And then, I slowly turned my gaze to my right and there up on a grassy ridge was a figure dressed in white. At first, I did not know who it was. And then, it dawned on me.

It was Jesus.

I recognized who it was and the second thing I said was, “Jesus! Hurry!” Slowly and steadily and surely, he began to walk down from the ridge. It was truly him. I was shocked and stunned and suspended in disbelief! He curved around in an arc as he moved my way. I think I may have said, “Hurry!” once more. But, he stayed his steady course on his way to me. It was just him (as a reflection of the Holy Spirit) and me.

After a moment, he stopped right in front of me and our eyes met. I could see his eyes. He looked exactly as he did 2,000 years ago. (At least that’s how I figured it later for in the moment, I was not thinking of 2,000 years ago.) I have not seen any pictures of him in this lifetime that looked like this. He was serene, gentle, kind. His body was thin and his hair and eyes were brown. His hair was curly and sweetly framed his face.

But, it wasn’t about what he looked like. It was about the joining of our holy minds together. It was the most comforting vision I have ever had.

He stayed there in front of me for a long time and there were no words. We were silent in the grace. Pure love and the feeling everything is going to be okay. Everything is going to be all right. He’s got this one.

It was, by far, the most complete and best feeling I have EVER experienced. I awoke in tearful joy and rolled over to my wife and said, “I just saw Jesus in my dream.” I put my arm around her and she put her arm on me. She was still sleeping and not interested in the details. But, when we shared a cup of coffee later that morning, I was glad to see that she knew my dream was the real deal. Heather gets it. She always has.

Jesus is here. The Holy Spirit is here. They never left. We cannot see him with our physical eyes . . . but when the veil drops, as it did in my dream, we can and are able to see him. He’s in the one mind. He’s pure and perfect love and his message, his tag line, his hashtag and message to me and to everyone is crystal clear.

He’s got this. God’s got this. It’s a done deal. God wins.

So, I will continue to be a card carrying member of the J Underground. We are the spirits walking among everyone who love and forgive in the same way Jesus did then and still does now. And while it is impossible to see this world and Heaven’s world at the same time – it is possible to get a glimpse.

It may feel like this world at times has no hope but there is hope. There is no death. The Holy Son of God is free. And, that includes you and me. We are all the children of God. Everyone. No one is left out. Not even who you thought was the bad guy.

We live forever in the spiritual arms of what we cannot see with our bodily eyes. But my friend, when we love and forgive, we can see with our spiritual eyes.

There is no expiration date on my card carrying message of the J J Underground.  There is a line of people I need to forgive and love around my own personal city block – and I am doing it. Forgiving and loving with the joy that has no tag line, the joy that has no words, the joy knowing we all have this.

He’s here, people. He’s in all of us. Wake up to your spirit, your reality, and you will see.

I am off to laminate my card and send the blessing of his message.

Love wins.

All my love,




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Gary and Cindy Lora-Renard – the real deal


I had the pleasure of attending a workshop in Manassas, Virginia on Saturday to listen to a man named Gary Renard and his wife Cindy Renard give a workshop on A Course in Miracles.

They are the real flippin’ deal. *Chills up and down my spine.*

And, anyone who is tired of this world and wants real answers should take the time to read his first book: The Disappearance of the Universe. His two other works that come after: Your Immortal Reality, and Love has Forgotten No One are home runs, too. In the books, he describes how in the early 1990’s in Poland Springs, Maine, he is visited by two ascended masters. Or, if the word “angel” works for you (as it does my mother), then we can call it that. Their names are Pursah and Arten and they have much to share in terms of bringing the world of fear or illusion to the truth. They go into politics, religion, New Age spirituality, and sex (a fave of many). They do much truth telling that, at times can seem sensational, but viscerally they bring an answer to all of us that cannot be denied.

He talked on Saturday about how we have had thousands of dream lifetimes in this world since the “tiny mad idea” of separation from God first occurred and how, truly, it all healed itself at once. Time and space are the making of us, not God. If God is perfect Love, then Love can hold no grievances. And, if you have noticed, this projected world of time and space is full of grievances that come from the illusion that we are really here in the first place. A hard “wrap your brain around” concept, but, this whole place is one large sleight of hand: a trick and, certainly, not a treat. Just turn on the news for more on that, or visit a mental hospital, or visit a prison, or listen to your own vitriol from time to time. It isn’t hard to find the tricks. And, where we made faulty decisions before, we will have another chance in another lifetime to make a better choice.

If this is the case, I am sure my grandfather will come back as a Jewish-African-American lesbian who becomes President of the United States. My other grandfather will come back sober – once and for all.

Alas, there is hope for this world, but only at the level of our MIND – not at the level of the effect, which is what you see “out there.” We have to, bottom line, see (and think) our brother as we see ourselves: nothing less than perfect spirit. As you see him or her, you will see yourself. A kind idea that is the wisdom of the ages.

My guess is that there were about 125 people at the Bull Run Unitarian Church but Gary and Cindy have collectively spoken to millions. In the last thirteen years, he has been telling audiences around the world that we are all innocent and that forgiveness of our brothers and sisters for what we THOUGHT they did is the way to return to the perfect love that we all are. He speaks eloquently about his love for the Course and can quote it like its no body’s business. He speaks of it and from it as if honey were coming out of is mouth. He tells jokes to lighten the mood and his wife, Cindy, sings like an angel. She, too, speaks adeptly and adroitly about the Course’s concepts and is, too, uncompromising like Gary in what the book is teaching us. Our projected world of sin, guilt, anger, stinkin’ thinkin’ is a bad dream that Jesus awoke from and one that we all will eventually awake from. It is a matter of choice. And, we as individuals must make that choice (sooner is better than later) because it is our responsibility in our own minds to change our minds about the world.

Gary loves movies and he loved Roger Ebert – the film critic who died in 2013. He wrote a note the day before he died: “It’s all an elaborate hoax.” Gary mentioned this on Saturday as he was relating his and the Course’s ideas.

Wow! It’s a hoax, a smokescreen, a fixed-delusional hallucination that we thought was true. We thought we could dip and quit where we come from. But, in truth, we cannot. We are all love and the message of the crucifixion – our last extreme example needed to get our full attention – teaches us this.

And these are the words of Jesus from ACIM:

“Teach only love, for that is what you are.” Jesus goes onto to say: “If you interpret the crucifixion in any other way, you are using it as a weapon for assault rather than as the call for peace for which it was intended.”  p. 94.

In all of Gary’s books, as he spoke on Saturday, he gives the uncompromising truth about this world. There is no world. The truth is true. Heaven is it and the only one who sees it clearly from the end of time is the Holy Spirit.

The Holy Spirit is our Guide sent to us as the great Correction Principle. The world of time and space is not real. Something that Buddhists have known for more than a millennium and what quantum physics is now proving.

The Holy Spirit was Jesus’ Guide. He is ours, too. You have the choice in your right mindedness to either join with the Holy Spirit (love) or join with the ego (fear).

Who will be your teacher? It will be the one who issues from your mind and onto your lips. As in Pursah’s  Gospel of Thomas, Jesus said, and I paraphrase–“After all, what goes into your mouth will not defile you; rather, it’s what comes out of your mouth that will reveal you.”

It all comes back to forgiveness – and forgiveness is the miracle. It comes from a man who is the Voice for A Course in Miracles. It comes from a man who demonstrated peace — Jesus. It comes from his disciples: Gary and Cindy and all of us who answer the call to teach love and forgiveness.

If I could go back and teach all of my students anything right now, it would be to pick up this teaching of Gary’s and read it and forget everything I taught you. It was all bad — especially the lesson on comma splices.

Find Gary and Cindy Renard and you will see no tricks — only loving teachers of God who are onto ALL of it.

Because they are All of it. Just like you and me.

All my love,


p.s. We will be lucky to have Cindy Lora-Renard and her sister, Jackie Lora-Jones, come to St. Thomas’ Church in Richmond, Virginia next March 25th – 2017. Save-the-date!





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