As a writer, I know now that my treasure house is not in the royalties I receive two times a year nor in the number of books I sell. I have not sold many in the many years I have written. Probably 5,000 copies among six books. I know now that numbers do not matter.

Of course, they never have. Numbers are man-made.

The passing of our stacks of paper and of our coins and of our binary ones and zeroes (digits) across a world of cash registers or the portals of the Internet is a bit of a sham. It just took me a long time to realize this. Our minds have been bought and sold on the threshold of the mad idea that money is the winner in the game of life. It works in our mad world where wars and governments are bought by the people who run the banks.

In Ken Wapnick’s book, When 2 + 2 = 5, he lays the framework for what our thinking has done for us in terms of the man-made world of money and fame and power: nothing. He points to the famous book by Dostoyevsky called Notes from the Underground. In this book, the author’s existential hero questions our world of reason and rationale. The man-made laws of this insane world have essentially imprisoned us from finding our freedom in the one and only truth. And, the only one unifying law that truly exists in this world, as Wapnick relates later, is the law of love’s reflection. Perhaps another word for this is kindness.

I knew I didn’t like math as a young child for a reason. Time and clocks confused me as did the tables of multiplication and division. When algebra arrived, I went under a rock and cried. My little girl mind raced and raced to find the answer to what all of the arithmetic meant. And, now I know through the works of ACIM and Wapnick and other great modern writers that none of the math ever works out to a functional conclusion. It merely demonstrates dysfunction.

Thank God for Ken Wapnick and his wonderful book. It is easy to read and he cuts through the load of baloney the ego has done in pulling the wool over our eyes. We have been badly taught by this world of man-made laws. We fell asleep billions of years ago to the Truth. Eons of stinkin’ thinkin.’

I am a slow learner . . . but that’s okay;)

Jesus wants us to be “in” this world, but not “of” it. We need to act out our roles in it because the big news flash here is that the gig is up on the ego. It is nothing. It was a projection of our minds in a tiny small moment where we thought we could run the “show” by ourselves. We cannot.

There is only God’s will. And, our freedom lies only in that.

Jesus says in ACIM:

“Miracles fall like drops of healing rain from Heaven on a dry and dusty world, where starved and thirsty creatures come to die. Now they have water. Now the world is green. And everywhere the signs of life show up, to show that what is born can never die, for what has life has immortality.”

The miracle is the correction of the wrong-thinking. There is no order in the difficulty of miracles. One is no different from another. When we forgive math and science and man-made laws that lie, we think rightly. In complete confidence I say this.

We are all of One mind. It is only in that world of perfect Oneness do we truly live. The one true equation that needs no solution is this: 1 + 1 = 1. Remember: All for one and one for all. I like that. I love it.

So, as I reap the amazing royalty checks I receive from time to time, I will remember that the numbers are meaningless. Alas, there is so much freedom in finally understanding what Plato and Jesus and Lao Tzu and Buddha and the other enlightened ones knew all along.

Merry Christmas to the guy who made it clear – Jesus. Merry Christmas to the “J” Underground. It is shining through all the lights of the world from you to me and me to you where the altar of love meets us in our forgiven minds.

All my love and forgiveness (enjoying the wonders of a math-less mind),

Ruth